Thursday, May 21, 2009

Boob V. Bottle-(From the Latex Nipple Perspective)

I have often thought about addressing this topic in my blog, but have never been able to bring myself to do it. I try to keep this blog lighthearted and centered around the wonderment that are my children. However tonight in my surfing, my fellow blogger friend Jessica posted her views on the subject and I have felt compelled to add to her remarks.
Before I had kids I could never decide whether I was going to be boob or a bottle mom. When approaching the birth of my first son, I decided I was going to give nursing a shot. All of the research indicated that it would be better for my baby and I was curious as to how it would go. I was raised in a bottle drinking family and my DH's family was the nursing type. Anyway, when Max was born I tried. I really did try to be that kind of a mom. The doctors pushed it, the lactation counselor tried to convince me my baby would be fat and dumb if I wasn't successful at it, and all of my friends were seasoned pros. For the first two weeks of my baby's life, all I seemed to do was pump and cry and wonder why God blessed me with 44DDDs that didn't work for squat.
In the end, a kind nurse and a supportive husband and family convinced me that it was more important for me to enjoy by little boy than continue fighting a battle that I was rapidly losing. From there I switched exclusively to formula and gave up trying anything else. Max was happy, healthy, and thriving, but I still cringed and wanted to cry every time someone pointed out that he was bottle fed. Many were even bold enough to inquire why and inform me that I was not making the "best" choice for my little one. I once told a woman in the mall that yes I chose not to breastfeed because I in fact did not love my child as much as she must love hers. I think she believed me.
Truth be told when I was pregnant with Zach one of my biggest fears was facing this "stigma" all over again. After weeks of stressing over it and confiding only in my husband about my feelings of failure, we decided it wasn't worth the stress. Zach was bottle fed from the beginning without much discussion. Again, I have a healthy, bright, well-adjusted baby who loves his mommy and daddy equally (actually he kind of still favors me!). Most of my friends were around with my struggles with Max so it was never really brought up this time. Strangers still make rude comments but I have learned that they tend to make rude comments about a lot of things. I ignore them. I can now sit in the middle of a group of moms at playgroup and pull out my bottle when they pull out there boobs and feel good about it. My baby only eats every four hours and always has. He has reached every milestone put in front of him. I have gotten to sleep while my husband takes 2AM feedings. It costs a little bit more, but we cut back other places when we need to and my nipples never hurt.
Now I have nothing against nursing moms at all. In fact around here I'm one of the only non-nursers I know. It works for some and not for others. I think we should all be glad that moms are taking care of babies in whatever way works best for them.
Now to the reason I posted this (other than getting on a soap box and a therapeutic attempt at justify my actions) I wonder if boob moms really secretly view bottle moms as failures and heathens or is this just some kind of insecurity and guilt we put on ourselves because breastfeeding happens to be the popular thing right now. What do you think? I'm interested in your point of view--if you are still with me of course. I did kind of start rambling and ranting didn't I?!? Anyway, thoughts??

6 comments:

Jessica said...

I personally do not judge others for their decisions. I think it is every mother's right to do what is best for her and her baby. Call me pro choice :)
However, it sure is weird how guilty I felt when I had to wean Jack at 4 months...maybe that is more b/c I had to do it out of necessity not choice. He has a milk allergen and I just love my cereal with COW milk to much to give it up.
I think a lot of BFing moms are very vocal in their blogs, lives, and opinions, so you just hear them more often.
Good for you for letting your bottle feeding voice be heard.
Maybe this will get more mama's who use bottles to speak up and tell the other moms who are so adamant in their disdain of all things latex to shut their trap...really the only person I am thinking if is the lady on the bottom of that BlogHer video thing. She was awful.

Crissy said...

I found you via the comment you left on Jessica's blog. I praise you for blogging about the bottle feeding mama's life. I too tried bfing and I also have very large breasts. So it was hard and uncomfortable to get used to. Then I also had a right nipple that wouldn't cooperate so she couldn't latch on properly. Switching to bottle feeding breastmilk was the best choice I ever made. My fiance was able to help with feedings and mama and baby were much more satisfied in the long run. She still gets a bottle which is breastmilk & formula because my breasts just aren't keeping up with her need and I want to start weaning my body and baby off the breastmilk because I feel it's time. So, thank you for your blog today!

The Grovers said...

I'm for bf by a pretty narrow margin. I chose to bf because there are a lot of benefits. I didn't mind bf too much but there are a few negative things about bf that I really don't like. I can't even tell you how uncomfortable it makes me when other moms bf around me. There was a lady in my ward that would feed her kiddo in the chapel without anything to cover up (Men and boys all around). I know that bf is natural and that babies have to eat but I think women should be discreet about it and not show the world their goods. So nasty! I also hated being tied down by bf. I felt like I didn't leave the house or do anything productive for like six months after Trey was born. It would have been so nice to just mix up a bottle wherever/whenever and let someone else in my family bond with and feed my little one. I think they have some great formulas out there for babies who can't tolerate breast milk and for Moms who can't/don't want to bf. I think Moms should do what they think is best for them and for their babies and not care what anyone says about their decision.

Erika said...

OK, I'll confess, before I had Lily, I used to look down on Moms who didn't choose to breastfeed their babies. Don't we all think we "know better" before we actually have kids though. There are so many reasons that women choose or need to bottlefeed their babies. For me, I breastfed Lily until she was just over three months, but it was really hard because I went back to work when she was six weeks old and wasn't able to pump as much as I needed to keep up. If I hadn't been getting milk from my sister who was producing too much (long story) I wouldn't have even been able to do it that long. My supply just wasn't keeping up with her demand. When I did decide to stop pumping and just switch completely to formula I felt a huge relief. I didn't feel as "guilty" as I thought I would and I really didn't miss it too much. I enjoyed it while it lasted, but I'm debating whether I'll even attempt it for our next child. Maybe I'll just do it for the first six weeks....who knows.
I think that anyone who looks down on bottlefeeding moms has just never been in those shoes. Everyone's situation is different and you aren't ruining your relationship with your child or damaging them by giving them formula. Actually it could be the other way around if breastfeeding isn't for you and you force it, you might do more damage to yourself and your baby through your stress and anxiety, right?

DaNise said...

I am currently BFing number three. I agree with Mary on the discreet thing and I hope that I have never embarrassed anyone. I am more relaxed at home, but I excuse myself to a private place or pump before I leave home. Yes, there are good/bad about both. Dr. Husband of mine is glad that I can BF. I remind him to be more tolerant of women who are not BFing. Yes, there are some who won't try, but some women do not tell their doctors the entire story. I think it is great that you made the effort you did. I did not know that so many women struggled with BF until I had babies. I understand more now.

Lauren said...

I am currently breastfeeding my second child. I understand not breastfeeding if you are working (I admire those who pump from work and admit, I doubt I could do it...) or the rare inability to breastfeed, but I truly don't understand giving up for any other reason.

I do judge and am upset by stay at home moms who simply CHOOSE not to breastfeed and then try to justify and excuse their decision, esp when they bring up the "negatives" of breastfeeding for no other reason than to make themselves feel better...

Having trouble feeding their child in public is the saddest excuse, to me. I think it's ridiculous that I am made to feel sexy and pretty when I wear low cut blouses, but feel self-concious and embarassed when I nurse in public (even using a cover). Something is seriously wrong with a society that wants to see breasts all the time - unless they are serving their purpose. It's pathetic to me that a mom would let others discourage her from doing something for her child.

I understand that many women struggle with breastfeeding - it was HARD for the first few weeks with both of my kids. But, it becomes easy and is well worth a few weeks of adjustment.